Mar 24, 2016

Posted by in Awesomeness, Fruit For Thought, G.I.G., Love, Understanding | 2 Comments

Just to Be Close

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Closeness

 

I’ve always thought of myself as an affectionate person. I love hugs, kisses, and just to be held. I’m the kind of person that tells my family “I love you” every chance I get, especially right before hanging up a phone call. Although I love displaying affection to those close to me, I’ve learned that some people are guarded with their affection or they don’t display their love the same way. This is the case with my dad. I know he loves me; he just has a different way of expressing it than I do. It doesn’t mean he loves me any less. I guess we have different “love languages.” And, as I’ve gotten older, I’ve learned to accept the language he loves me in…

But, there was this one time, I remember fondly, that my dad loved me in the language I speak fluently. It was after I had a major surgery. He stayed with me overnight in the hospital, and I began to have complications. Out of fear, he grabbed me and held me in his arms while yelling for the nurse. I was kind of out of it, but I could hear the trembling in his voice as he held me close. I just remember feeling so loved. It’s one of my favorite memories with my dad. Although that was a very painful time and I wouldn’t intentionally put my dad through that fearful experience again, I wouldn’t trade that moment for the world.

God brought this memory back to my mind recently. I’ve been going through a hard time lately. It seems like I’ve been attacked in the areas where I’m the most insecure, so my strength is limited and I often feel as though I can’t take it. Subsequently, I’ve been running to God more frequently, and, during my prayer time, I’ve asked Him to take it away because I couldn’t bear it any longer. I felt as though I was being broken, and I already had “cracks” in those areas. When He brought that memory to mind, I knew exactly what He was telling me. Although He didn’t take joy in seeing me hurting, He loved how the experience drove me into His arms. I once heard Louie Giglio say, “We ask God to take the pressures out of our lives, but many times pressures bring us closer to God (we pray when things are bad).” This is so true, because I can honestly say if I wasn’t going through what I am going through, I wouldn’t have spent this much time with God. And, as a result of the daily time spent with God, my appetite for Him has increased.

My outlook on the situation has changed. I’m starting to see it like that time with my dad in the hospital. Although, there’s a lot of pain involved, the intimacy I’m experiencing with my Heavenly Father and He with me outweighs it. I’ve never had a hunger for the Word like I do now. And, even though I haven’t been “rescued” or taken out of the situation, God has provided unlimited comfort and now I am able to comfort others to the glory of God (2 Corinthians 1:3-7). So, I am actually thankful that God allowed me to go through what I am going through, because it brought me closer to Him and His heart. **G.I.G.**

 

P.S. – I’ve been playing this song and singing this song over and over during my time with God lately. He’s such a loving father, and it expresses how I feel about Him exactly. Watch the video below or click here to watch on YouTube.

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  • Shelia

    Thank you for this message. I am in a very low place and this touched me deeply. God bless you!

    Shelia