Feb 3, 2016

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Have You Ever Been in Love?

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Ever in Love

 

I remember going places where I was in a crowd, and the speaker that was before us would ask, “How many of you have ever been in love?” In response, I would confidently raise my hand with that one guy in mind that I fell in love with years ago. But, if someone were to ask me that question today, my hand would remain rested on my lap. Due to recent encounters with God, I’m beginning to see that I’ve never been in love with someone. I may have been “in emotions” or “in feelings” with them, but in love I was not. It’s not that I’ve never met anyone that was deserving of my love, it’s just that I see now that I didn’t know what love was. And, if you don’t know what love is, how can you “fall into it” with someone?

 

I had my first boyfriend when I was a senior in high school. I remember when he told me he loved me, I questioned him because I didn’t think he meant it or he knew what love was. I even bought him a book from my church bookstore on the meaning of love. So, as you can see, I’ve always held the “L” word in high regard. I never wanted to used it with the opposite sex unless I meant it. And, with my next boyfriend, I actually unlocked the safe I was holding that word in and I used it, because I “knew” I meant it. I had feelings that I had never felt before, so it must have been love.

 

I see so differently now. It’s not to say that I didn’t have love for the guys I’ve had relationships with in the past, but I wasn’t in love with them. I can say that now because I have something to compare it to that’s authentic. I have truly fallen in love and it transcends emotions and feelings. I almost don’t know how to explain it, but I will try…My heart constantly feels overwhelmed with joy and sorrow. Joy because I am the recipient of His love and I get to be with Him everyday; because He thinks of me and cares for me; because He is faithful to me; and because I know He has the best intentions for me. Sorrow because I hurt when He hurts; because I grieve when I hurt Him; and because I wish I could love Him the way He love me.

 

I’ve fallen in love with God, and it was the realization of how deep, how high, how long, and how wide His love is for me (*although I will never be able to fully comprehend it) that awakened my heart to love. I know that I will never experience this kind of love with another human being, but now that I know what it is, I want to give this kind of love of away, the love He gives me. And, it doesn’t have to be with the opposite sex. I am starting now with my friends. God is showing me how to love them better, and I am so grateful…

 

I almost feel like Sleeping Beauty. My heart has been awakened from deep sleep, because I finally allowed my First Love to get close enough to kiss me…draw nigh to God and He will draw nigh to you. **G.I.G.**

 

*Ephesians 3:18-19

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